366th Day ~ A Commemoration

Maybe this is what they called missing someone but there is nothing you can do of that feeling…

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Dear Mom,

It’s been exactly a year since the last day I met you. The moments when I realized that I could still touch but you wouldn’t feel it, as well as when I wanted to said something but you could not heard and even speak to me anymore,

forever.

Now I understand why at the end of your unwritten story, some people around was sad back then, but I just sat down in silence there looking at you and them. And why there is a late grief when the tears down from these eyes at the days after.

I let you go without truly knowing that I am gonna miss you…

They said I was strong, while deep inside my heart tells they were possibly wrong.

Sometimes you just walk in and pass through my mind, some other times you knock my dreams just to drop by and say hello, before leaving again.

At certain moments you bring back my childhood memories in these mature realities. Those followed by trying to count how many mistakes I may have done for you but I could not have said my apologies.

Therefore, do I deserve to send it now to you?

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“Maybe this is what they called missing someone and there is nothing you can do of that feeling,”

but praying.

Good night, Mom.  God loves you much more than I do…

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After supper at the place where I received a news concerning you, twelfth day of the ninth month.